My Life as a Shadow

I thought I saw a star
it was a satelite.
I thought I saw an ocean
it was a puddle.
I thought I saw a sandy beach
it was a sand box.
I thought I saw a forest
it was my backyard.
I thought I saw the sun
it was a flashlight.
I thought I had a diamond
it was plastic.

I thought I was smart
I was ignorant.
I thought I was strong
I was weak.
I thought I was full
I was empty.
I thought I knew how to love
I was hateful.
Ignorant, weak, empty, hateful
And more.

I thought I was alive
I was dead.

My fears seemed too dark.
My demons seemed too strong.
My death seemed too final.
My efforts were too futile.

Maybe I was beautiful once
that was destroyed.
Maybe I was happy once
that was stolen.
Maybe I was innocent once
that was shattered.

I had no right to be saved.
You had no reason.
But the paradox
is I was the reason
or were you the reason?

The light to dissipate my fears.
The exorcist to banish my demons.
The power to halt my death.

I thought I was dead
I turned around
I was alive