You know that feeling you get in your toes when it's December and you only wear one pair of socks?

Numb

Almost like frost bite

Not hurting, not feeling,

But dying everyday. 

Cold and unmoving

Nothing comes in, nothing gets out.

Lifeless and empty

The vacancy sign lit

Eternal vacancy. 

Not changing, not caring.

Alone yet unbothered.

Ceasing to exist,

Through merely existing. 

No more than survival, 

And barely even that. 

Breathing is humanity's only signal.

Painless, loveless.

Without despair, without joy. 

Almost like frost bite

Numb.

I think numb is something I have the potential to become very easily...again.

 So much about not feeling anything seems appealing. But then, at the same time, so much about it scares me. 

Maybe I'd never get hurt, but I couldn't ever be happy, either.

Numb is the easy choice, I'm convinced. I mean, it sucks to be numb, but it really is a lot simpler to just not feel than to live in a constant state of pain, at least on the surface. After a while, you've gone too far. Being numb causes you to lose a part of you that you honestly will never be able to get back. 

Numb is a dangerous place to be. And so often it seems like the only means of escape, which is a big part of what makes it so dangerous. You might not even be living if you're so completely immersed in numbness. 

Numb is not an option anymore. Forcing myself to feel, even if it's pain, is the only way I can logically see getting through life's ups and, perhaps more essentially, downs.